Apart

I feel adrift.
I go to church, but I am a spectator,
Not a participant.
I want to feel part of the Body of Christ,
To know the warmth and security
I have experienced in the past.
Why do I feel separate?
I do not know.
I will follow your words:
"What doth the Lord thy God require of thee,
But to fear the Lord thy God,
To walk in all his ways,
And to love Him,
And to serve the Lord thy God with all thy heart
and with all thy soul."
Whether I feel your presence or not,
Whether I feel part of the fellowship,
I have committed my soul to your care:
There is no other way.